Oops, my posts disappeared

I didn't intend the break in posting, but was frustrated with blogger when I had drafted some lengthy notes and then poof! Gone. It is my own fault but I didn't feel up to writing everything again so I took a break.

That was a mistake. I ended up off-track. It started on Saturday afternoon and didn't stop until last night. I feel like I keep going through the same good/bad cycles. I am frustrated and discouraged. I'm not sure how to keep momentum going. I know what to do and typically feel motivated enough to eat well for a few days and then... I'm not sure what happens. But once I've gone off-track, I end up thinking I've blown it and should just go ahead and eat everything I've been thinking about for the past few days now. And only when I'm filled with self-loathing and have hit rock bottom am I able to pick myself up again.

I need to work on my mental skills. It's not helpful to let myself spiral downward into despair. I have to catch before it gets to that point. Maybe time to incorporate Beck again?

1. green smoothie: 8 oz kale and cauliflower stems, strawberries, orange, grapefruit, 1 T flax seed

2. salad: romaine and kale, 1/2 cup pinto beans, 1/4 large cucumber, 12 baby carrots, 1/2 lg avocado, orange-peanut EFH dressing

3. green smoothie: 8 oz kale and cauliflower stems, strawberries, orange, grapefruit, 1 T flax seed

4. swim: 1:00