Friday, November 13, 2009

November 12, November 13

Yesterday I had planned on getting up early and doing a bike workout but when the alarm hit, I was sooooo tired and couldn't force myself out of bed. This is the third night of not getting enough sleep (6-ish hours) so I think my body was just needing to rest. I'm okay with this -- kind of -- but the OCD side of me feels guilty that I didn't get my workout in. Yes, I am crazy!

I wasn't hungry in the morning when I woke up and I think it's because of the overeating the previous night. I must try to remember that it's okay to be a little hungry before going to bed. I wasn't hungry until lunch time and when I finally ate that salad, it tasted really good. Fuhrman is right in that food tastes better when you're hungry. :)

I was supposed to go out with the BF to a local beer event. To prevent myself from being tempted at eating at the restaurant, I ended up drinking my morning smoothie around 5 pm. The traffic was bad and by the time we finally met up, it turns out we were both too tired to go downtown. We ended up at a pizza place and I didn't do too well - ended up having pizza!


B - nothing, wasn't hungry

L - large salad: romaine, cabbage, 1/2 medium avocado, baby carrots, 3/4 cup black beans, 1 small tomato, buttermilk-like dressing
- 1 mango
- 1 fuyu persimmon

S - green smoothie: 2 pears, strawberries, 1 T flax, 6.5 oz collards (really sweet and yummy)

D - 3 slices mushroom pizza, 1/2 bottle beer

E - pilates: 0:15


Today has been a better day. I got my morning AND evening workout in and so far, have been eating well. I'm feeling a little frustrated because I feel like I should have lost weight this week but I don't think I have. I know that my exercise isn't what it used to be since it's technically "off-season" and I'm not doing 4-hr bike rides or 2 hour daily sessions. I'm trying to stay positive and not let my mind go into the "throw in the towel" mentality. Because yeah - eating won't make me feel any better and it definitely won't help the situation!

I'm going to leave soon to spend time with the BF who will be cooking SAD food. He promises we'll take a trip to the grocery store soon though so I can show him what food I like to eat. Hah. So I don't overeat, I already ate some veggies. :) I will update this post tomorrow with whatever else he serves....


B - green smoothie: 1 pear, strawberries, 6.25 oz bok choy, 1 T flax seed

L - salad: romaine, cabbage, baby carrots, 1 small tomato, 1/2 large avocado, 3/4 cup black beans, buttermilk-like dressing
- 1 fuyu persimmon
- 1 fuji apple

D - small pot of broccoli, collards with tomato sauce
- 1 persimmon, 1 dried persimmon
- the rest is TBD

E - swim: 1:10, weights: 0:45

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

November 11

I felt tired this morning and really tired during the morning workout... almost like I was bonking. I wonder if I didn't eat enough last night?

I had major cravings today - mostly this afternoon. I think I'm looking for a break and wanting to do something else. I mostly survived (didn't eat SAD anyway) but ended up eating some sunflower seeds (more than I need and they were salted) because... oh, I don't know why - because somehow I justified it as being better than SAD. Yes, while it's better, I can DO better!

I had a massage scheduled today at 7 pm so I pieced together some odd food before I left. I wasn't hungry leaving the massage and had another victory since I went to the grocery store afterward and walked out with NO JUNK food. I even walked down the bakery and snack aisles tempted to take something! When I got home though, I was a bit "snacky" - but not hungry! I logically acknowledged this, but I still ended up eating. It wasn't a binge but definitely overeating. I didn't need it!


B - green smoothie: 2 pears, strawberries, 1 T flax, 6.5 oz collard greens

L - salad: romaine, 1 tomato, baby carrots, 1/2 avocado, 3/4 cup black beans, buttermilk-type dressing
- 1 persimmon

S - 2 oz RS sunflower seeds

D - (pre-massage) 1.5 cups garbanzo beans, 25 dates, 1/3 bag berries and cherries
- (after massage) 5 dried persimmons, about a pound of edamame peas

E - swim: 1:00

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

November 10

I'm really trying to get off my sugar/salt addiction so when the cravings hit, I've been allowing myself snacks of ETL-friendly food. In this case, it's been fruit. I didn't need the apple in the afternoon but I was fighting the urge to go by the admin's candy dish. I also didn't necessarily need to eat more after I came home from class at 10:30 pm, but I was feeling "snacky", in the middle of making green smoothies for the next day, and afraid I'd dive into some unhealthier habits so I allowed myself to eat more fruit. It's probably not going to help with weigh-loss, but so far, it's helping with bingeing!


B - green smoothie: 1 T flax, kiwi, strawberries, 6.5 oz kale
- 2 large fuji apples

L - large salad: romaine lettuce, 1/2 medium avocado, 1/2 cucumber, 3/4 cup black beans, 1 small tomato
- a lot of large seeded grapes (maybe 30?)

S - 1 lg fuji apple

D - steamed broccoli with tomato sauce
- 1 persimmon, 1 date, 1/3 bag frozen berries and cherries

E - bike: 0:40, run: 0:10

Monday, November 9, 2009

Weekly Goals: Nov 9 - Nov 15

I have to do everything in baby steps. It's the only way I won't get overwhelmed and the only way to stay focused. The main problem I need to address is the bingeing. Sure, I could blame emotions, stress, triggers, people, but in the end it's my choice to do it. Food has no power over me. Logically, I think I understand the problem now. I only do it at home -- alone -- and nowadays, it is always in front of the computer. It's my "wind down" time. I just veg out and internet surf. It's like mindless eating in front of a TV, except I do it in front of the computer. I cringe writing that.

It's just a BAD HABIT.

And any habit can be broken. I need to train my brain to do something else instead to wind down. I've thought of a few steps I can take in the right direction so here's what I'll focus on this week:


  • NO eating in front of the computer. That's it. It's a rule that I can't break.

  • Brush and floss my teeth right after dinner. I won't eat more because I'm too lazy to brush and floss again!

  • Read my ARC after dinner and anytime I'm tempted to binge.

  • Look at the list of things I could do instead of eating.

November 9

So uncreative with the titles, but since I'm not doing the strict 6-week plan I don't know what else to title this. I'm not sure how long I'll be posting food logs, but I'll give it a go again for now.

Some good things I did today: Today someone brought in their leftover Halloween candy where it sat in the kitchen ALL day long. I was really tempted to take a few treats ("They're tiny, one won't do any harm!" said the inner evil voice) but didn't. Whew!

I was really hungry around 4 pm and decided to snack, knowing I wouldn't be able to eat dinner for another 3 hours. I was planning on going to the market after work and was afraid if I was too hungry, I'd end up buying junk and worse, eat it in the car on the way home.

I had planned on eating more for dinner but was surprisingly satisfied after the salad. Hmmm... I must still be full from the overeating this past weekend. All in all, I think it was a good day!


B - green smoothie: 1 T flax, kiwi, strawberries, 6.5 oz kale

L - large salad: romaine lettuce, apples, pears, walnuts
- 1 large fuji apple

S - about 16-20 large seeded grapes

D - salad: romaine (I weighed it today - it was 13 oz), 1 roma tomato, 1/2 large avocado (weighed this also for fun: 1.25 oz), 1/2 cucumber, about 2 T hummus, 1.5 cups garbanzo beans
- mango

E - swim: 1:10